A man’s heart plans his way,
But the Lord directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9
But the Lord directs his steps.
Proverbs 16:9
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Shirt: Garage
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Boots: Forever 21
I am currently at the library, studying. (Studying: writing up this blog!)
I've been aiming to get better grades than last semester, I ended with at 3.6 GPA .. whatever that means. I did better than I have in a really long time. I'm in the home stretch of my course, but I'm considering bridging over to a degree program (bachelor of commerce). I don't know yet though. My dad really wants me to, but it's hard. It would require me getting a loan and that freaks me out. I hate loans, I hate debt, I hate owing people anything.
I've been aiming to get better grades than last semester, I ended with at 3.6 GPA .. whatever that means. I did better than I have in a really long time. I'm in the home stretch of my course, but I'm considering bridging over to a degree program (bachelor of commerce). I don't know yet though. My dad really wants me to, but it's hard. It would require me getting a loan and that freaks me out. I hate loans, I hate debt, I hate owing people anything.
I've been thinking about it a lot though, really asking myself the questions of, "why do you want to do it?"
Here's the real deal y'all (I'm Canadian, but sometimes I say y'all.. I don't know, don't judge me!) ...
I've lived my life a certain way for a really long time... I've always done what others have wanted me to do. I am, undoubtedly, a people pleaser. Now, if you know me personally, you're probably thinking, "uh, no you're not!" and you'd be right. I don't walk around wanting to please everyone, but I do want to please my parents and my brothers. This isn't a bad thing but it's also prevented me from taking risks that I otherwise would have. So, as I've pondered the question on why I want to study, I've come to this simple truth; I want to do it for me. I want to accomplish the one thing I thought I would my whole childhood; to prove to myself that I can and that I will., (Not completing school several times, has taken a toll on my ego and has caused me think that I am not as smart as I thought)
Yes, I have this plan and I'll do everything I need to do in order to accomplish it but sometimes life does not go as planned. God ultimately has the power over my life, all that I do is for HIS glory, not mine.If for whatever reason, for whatever purpose, God leads me in a direction that is not what I planned, I am willing to follow it. The promise of hope, future and peace is enough for me. There is not greater call on my life than to follow JESUS.
I've lived my life a certain way for a really long time... I've always done what others have wanted me to do. I am, undoubtedly, a people pleaser. Now, if you know me personally, you're probably thinking, "uh, no you're not!" and you'd be right. I don't walk around wanting to please everyone, but I do want to please my parents and my brothers. This isn't a bad thing but it's also prevented me from taking risks that I otherwise would have. So, as I've pondered the question on why I want to study, I've come to this simple truth; I want to do it for me. I want to accomplish the one thing I thought I would my whole childhood; to prove to myself that I can and that I will., (Not completing school several times, has taken a toll on my ego and has caused me think that I am not as smart as I thought)
Yes, I have this plan and I'll do everything I need to do in order to accomplish it but sometimes life does not go as planned. God ultimately has the power over my life, all that I do is for HIS glory, not mine.If for whatever reason, for whatever purpose, God leads me in a direction that is not what I planned, I am willing to follow it. The promise of hope, future and peace is enough for me. There is not greater call on my life than to follow JESUS.
For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope.
